sometimes I feel holidays really sux cuz it always make me think something unpleasant whenever I am alone at home... yes... I have been crying at home during the weekend... cuz of something which I don't wish to reveal... haii... I don't know who I can trust... Now you tell your friends you will never know when they will say it out to others...

I hate the feeling when ppl want to compete with you cuz of some lame things... and then it makes me flare up and I say all those hurtful things without thinking of other people's feelings... Best friends? Buddies? close friends? those are just names... You will never know when they will betray you... I totally hate betrayers... but is really soffocating when you have to keep all your secrets inside... some things can't be told by parents cuz you will not feel comfortable talking to them about some stuff...

WHERE?!! WHERE are all my friends when I need them the most? The most I can trust is my secondary school friends... but they can't help much either... I really wish that I can talk all my feelings out with the person that I can trust the most... will there be such a person???