my mood was badly affected by the incident on fri... those who were with me on that day should know why... don't wish to talk about it again... =/... my mum can treat it like this has never happen before cuz she is back to the way she is... but not for me... I was badly affected by it... i didn't feel happy at all after that day... I wasn't the person I use to be after that day... everything is not going right for me this few days... hmmm... this year maybe a bad year for me I guess... maybe this is not the age of having my freedom yet... I know... maybe i'm too young to have such freedom... but everybody wishes to have their own freedom don't they...

I did try talking to my mum but she just won't listen to what I said... yea... she is the stubborn kind of person... which you can really find hard time talking to her to wake her sense of what you are trying to say... she will always have her opinon and always will want people to go her way instead of she going to to people's way...

maybe my parents don't really understand what I really wanted for years... and that is freedom... they still treat me like all those kids that needs protection... i mean all parents will want to protect their children thats fine... but if overly protected are you able to accept it???

maybe i am also taking for granted lately... keep on coming home late when i have class the next day... after that talk on the phone also almost everyday.. yea... gotta change the habit of mine... to let my mum trust me over again... my mum hasn't really been trusting me after what all has happen... so yea... gotta gain back her trust once again... everything must put back in place before anything gets worst...

not really in the mood to do anything right now... fri incident really shocked me and affected me badly... i haven't been smiling nor talking a lot to my parents lately... so yea... hope my mood will be back to place after a few days... =)...

wooo~~~ its been long since I last update... been busy as usual... or also can be said as rather lazy... anw happy CNY everybody... tml gotta wake up early to go relative hse so yea... gotta slp early.. juz had a quarrel with baby... hmmm... maybe i'm juz being unreasonable or whatever the thing is... yea... the very 1st time i had tis quarrel after 3-4 mths being together... and is on a very stupid thing luhs... but yea... he is always giving in to me... =)... i have a very short temper so u really got to understand me if i ever flare up on someting... well, maybe i can change on that... but yea... this is my personality...

I wonder why guys love to play computer games so much... hmmm... maybe I should try out one day too... =)... LOL... well, if i have the free time... cuz now is i'm busy with my school work luhs... argh! hate it... i sux at sun solaris luhs... dunu what eric see toking abt... maybe he is toking to fast... cuz after all he had teach i only understand a little part of it... like wth luhs... argh! got to start bucking up my Sun Solaris... and my IFA is still all right... juz that some parts of the code prob... but the rest is still rather ok.. =)...

hmmm... meeting baby on sat... so yea... finally got to see him... Mon... only met him for awhile then go home ALONE luhs... cuz he needs to go somewhere... tues... also met him for awhile then go home ALONE again... cuz he got class to go to... wed suppose to meet him for awhile but mum wasn't very happy that I go out on the CNY eve... so yea... didn't in the end... thur and fri can't get to meet him due to visiting... so yea... only sat...

probably bcuz of this dats y I'm like that... =(... sian luhs...

well, today had a family renuion dinner... is actually a very happy one... talk a lot of things and stuff... ^.^... haha...