i screwed java today.. i dunu what happen to me.. i feeling all nervous.. hand shaking... i keep telling myself come on this is a test not exam why are you nervous for? But in the end... :( i still did mistakes.. and a major one... haii... Kiss my A(s) good bye...dun think can get one though... :(((

i am really tired! tired with studies. my math test was below my expectations. I was distracted... i freaking hate it when something affects my studies especially when comes to test or exam...

is there anybody i can look for or a shoulder to lie or cry on whenever i need them. I am really darn tired...

i am scared really scared.. in another 8 hours exams result i out..

negative thoughts running thru my mind. what if i fail? i dun wanna retake the module.. i hate retaking.

what if my GPA is not at least 3.5? the next few exams how am i Gonna improve my GPA? is my GPA Gonna drop or go up?

i never had this tots before... this is the 1st time... i am losing confidence in myself.. in my studies..i really tried my best and studied real hard... though i did my v best.. but the marks that i am gonna have is the marker..

worked at pc show from fri to sun.. it was the most tiring and unsucessful one... i keep on talking like shit and yet most of the customers having fun making fun of me!

fri sold one! sat sold 4! sun sold 6! but guess what? sun i didn't count on myself like what I did during the previous IT show... cuz most of them wanted freebies! AND want good graphic card like ATI, big hard disk space and ram within below 1000?!

keep wanting discount this n that.. I broke down on the last day of PC show. cuz i couldn't even sell one when the time is already 5+.. i keep talking keep shouting for customers n begging customers to buy from me..

even the PC show ended some customers will still be running in. I didn't even think of resting but just continue..

probably won't be working for the next IT show till economics picks up..

thanks for helping me during the last day of IT show! =)))

today is like wth... i was kena caught by lee siew lee for improper attire.. is like poly can wear home clothes but is like this cannot wear that cannot wear.. then u expect us to wear shirt and jeans for 3 years??? i dunu but i feel maybe our class is too noisy we always talk back to her during math lesson when she do mistakes, so this is the time to taker her revenge?

dun wanna talk abt it... i was damn pissed!

haven't been blogging.. cuz busy busy busy... i have been spending too much time on my jap... well, next week will be full of test... next week i have web app test and project, programming essential test, jap oral... is killing me.. i stayed up till abt 3 plus to study my math. i noe i am crazy... but is like the previous paper i had.. didn't do well at all.. yes i pass.. but so what? the marks is not what i expected to be.. due to? time management...

today math quiz was like -.-... most of us didn't do well though.. i juz pass... 5/10 ques.. highest i saw was 7? i guess... n yeap... i did well for my programming essential n ess IT though... ^^.. poly life is not easy... within my ability i can't fight with those express ppl.. they r like.. wow! kk shall stop here then... tata

0.0 its been long since i update... my jap totally can't make it...!!! i am memorizing till crazy... oral test all bombing towards me...

math teacher wise... i only can say she is juz so freaking **** up... is like she needs the whole thing step by step instead of doing short cut... n there is always MISTAKES in her math questions... n yet she still ask us to do? she juz said "though the questions are wrong but still can try..." n she is talking like one shooting gun during tutorial as well... n expect us to understand what she says...

the rest r still all right i guess....

i got math test next week... n hopefully i can do the STEPS right...

n today got foregin bodies audition.. n i juz ran halfway cuz i know i sure can't get in de... is like so difficult... really... they wan us to do body wave... baby said i can do but i dun think i can... is like my body just don't condinate...

i can't keep up with the pace... so i juz gave up halfway... i now left nyaa and community service club as my cca... haii...

i going to slp now.. tml got grp studies...

thanks for all the concerns today... regradless is it on phone or face to face... thank you so much... =)))